Happy Halloween Day! or was it yesterday? Well today is the last day of this month. This month contains the best and worst moment of my life.
Best moment was spending time with my Dear, Angela and Worst Breaking off. (can't believe it, i'm crying while typing this blog.) crybaby ? you decide.

Firstly, no one is to be blame for this ending but myself. I got carried away thinking so far. Wishful thinking part of mine. Thought this relationship could never end but... never turn out what i expected.

From what she told me, she got a BF now. Good for her. Hope that the guy will Treasure and Love her like i do. (what am I talking about !!? trying to console myself ?? To hell with you Lionel!!)

Hmm i'll still be counting down to her birthday. You'll never know what will happen during this period. Maybe I disapper from this world, found someone else, she'll come back to me? (there i go again thinking..) Really hope so. Angela you're still my "BOOK" you know what i mean. If you have any problems, look for me. Hp, Msn, Email, DA any methods. Will get back to yuo ASAP.

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Misses Angela
96 days and counting


Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give -- which is everything
-- Joan Crawford

Woke up so late... 1pm+ Played CS, Utopia, logging in n out of Darkages waiting for Angela. Forgot she got classes today. Duh!
Today Silbing and I have 1 meal only thats dinner lol all not hungry... all trying to be "shen xian". (deity) like what Maria said. Haha. Glad that Maria is feeling much better.
Well Man Utd LOST to Portsmouth.. 0-2 BWG! I'm beginning to think whether to continue subscribing to the Sports Channel. They are going to increase the fee more then HALF! and i'm not paying to watch Man Utd LOSE -_-|
1 Good sign is that Angela is not hiding or avoiding me. Means i'm not a pest for the time being. =/ Cheers! ( See lar Lionel think so much make yourselve worry..) Maybe we or myself have take thing tooo fast. Slower the pace will be better.

Below are some pic from Sentosa


Half the Class only


Half the Guys


Calvin, Junhan, Myself


Erik , Myself, Aidil, Eric finishing up the food Muhahaha


Time to Go >.<


Misses Angela
97 days and counting


It is not how much we do, but how much love we put into doing it. It is not how much we give, but how much love we put into giving.
-- Mother Teresa

25/10

On that day was raining heavily, so much thinking to do after that night. Hoping the lightning would struck me or cars bang me. Well din't happen... hmm i'm crazy to think of this..

26/10

After school, met Maria (cousin) to watch 4.45pm The Manchurian Candidate at Cineleisure. Alot of talking about brainwash a platoon of troops bleh bleh bleh... its a 2 hours show. After that we slack about from Cineleisure to PS walking, talking to each other trouble and problem. Haizzz, don't let me meet that guy who upset my cousin. Fucking Asshole Frag. Can't believe theres this type of guy in this world or maybe i haven't see the BIG world yet.. all this talking with my cousin make me realize all things are unpredictable and we got to face reality. But i'm not giving up on Angela. No way. Smsed her about myself feeling "alright" and asking her not to cry or blame herself over it. Well she did cried for 2 days.. how i wish i was with her. Maybe i thought the positive way, she cried means she did love me..? I'm so confused.

27/10-29/10

Nothing much happened. Still the same moodless Lionel in school unable to overcome what had happened. Buddys around me asking me to take it slow and easy bleh bleh bleh. Anyway I thx them for their concern.Hmm I did passed the 2 tests which i had promised to Angela. Well i set a target 5 Feb which falls on her birthday. Not sure if she has forgotten about me.. well i have not. How am i going to maintain the communcation between us ? sms ? Darkages ? Msn ? What should i do... Hope she don't think im a pest -_-|

Misses Angela
98 days and counting


It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone -- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
-- Jamie Yeo

For 3 days i have not been blogging. Alot of things happen. Lets start on...

Sat 23/10.

Stayed at home played games... that night my Aunt and Uncle was leaving for Japan. I'll be alone at home for 1 week.

Sun 24/10

Met up with Maria (cousin) and Bryan (brother) to catch a movie at Tampines Mall (TM) about 1pm+. As usual my treat again, we watched Ladder 49. I recommend this show! I learned some *what you call that* ways of life? Makes me think alot. Always cherish what you have cos you'll never know what will happen the next second. Before i met them, i smsed Angela about going to TM. She was there too with her mum and sister shopping. *grin* time to meet mother-in-law =x anyway never saw them.

That night was the Big Match, Man Utd vs Arsenal at 11pm. Man Utd won that night 2-0 but i was not really concern about it.

At round 11.35pm, i got an sms from Angela. She wanted to break off... at that moment my world came crashing down. What did i do to make her say that ? did i do or say anything wrong ? at the time i was feeling confuse, sad, angry.. She said she loved someone else.. but don't tell me that durig those time when we were together there was no feeling? her reply was feeling as a good friemd.. omg i can't believe it. She even ask me to scold or shout at her but do you think i'll do that? NO AND NEVER. I think shes hiding something, not about she loving someone else (from what i feel). Maybe she don't want those that are also around her to get sad or her parent or something.. thats why i was sacifice. Not that i'm trying to be smart here.. but eversince i met her she was more concern about others then herself.

Angela, I really hope you're reading this. I DON"T BLAME YOU AT ALL! Remember what i told you in game? Always love you and will never hurt or break you heart. I'm hoping you'll give us both a chance to be together and more time. I really do. Because to love someone you need time to develop it. I know its not easy but only time will tell. Remember that email you sent me? about the promise that when you end a relationship, you will not turn back and let the relationship have another turn. Have you ever think of the positive side? not all relationship always turn up in the bad side. Yes I agree with you that when a relationship is broken, there will be a crack. But it can be heal as long there is TIME and PATIENCE. Dear i really miss you.
Please come back to me. No use avoiding me cos I still LOVE you. The more you avoid me the more i think of you.

Misses Angela


Love doesn't hide. It stays and fights. It goes the distance. That's why God made love so strong. So it can carry you. All the way home.
-- Franklin P. Jones

Yay!! Last day of the week. Today alot of ppl never come for class cos there were no lessons and some grps did their Power Point Presentation (PPT). Too bad i got to come for the PPT.. Quick and easy presentation. Finished within 20 mins.

After that, we proceeded to Sentosa straight from school ! Our teacher jio us to go. Reached Harbour Front at 12pm and had our lunch there as its much cheaper then inside Sentosa...

From there, we took the Sentosa bus inside paid $3 each and took the Blue line bus to Siloso beach. No sun , no rain but cloudy. Perfect whether? We played volleyball, soccer using the volleyball =/ and others. Haha the volleyball let us kick till no air. The best was playing at the sea. Muhahah threw Junhan into the sea ! SONG BO! The whole thing was recorded in the Digi Cam. The sea water is so salty and my eyes... kinda got blind by the water.. it HURTS! Now at home still having the salty taste and feeling.. Hmm waiting for Junhan to online in msn to send me those photos and most important the Video! Everything finished at about 7pm+

Later on i went back to Tampines. Met angela and her friends. Accompany her to wait for her bus home. Miss ya Dear!

Loves Angela


Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their hearts but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours
-- Max Lucado

Yesterday night was busy doing game stuff din't have time for blog. Well i'll do it now. Same as any other day, late as usual. This time around i miss the busstop which i was suppose to alight. Got to walk 1 busstop back.. what was i doing ? day dreaming
No lessons again.. suprisingly our class CA (Form Teacher) ask us want to go Sentosa on Friday 0.0. Maybe going. After class, went back straight to accompany Angela online =/

Loves Angela Forever


For you see, each day I love you more. Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow.
-- Rosemonde Gerard

Late for class again ! Geeeee. Anyway i forgot all about what happened in school.

I was so happy to see Angela again =) Meet her at Compass Point, Sengkang. Accompany her to buy presents for your god-brother and friends. So guess where we went for our first date? Libaray !!! of all places.. awww i feel that its a bad starting.. Compass Point doesn't have much places to hang about.. with 2 hours, i got to treasure it.. every second of it. Hmm after that sent her right about 10 steps away from her Doorsteps =/ She got visitors at home thats why. erm i wonder when is the next date... Ok thats all for today.

Loves Angela


Faith makes all things possible. Love makes all things easy. Hope makes all things work.
-- Richard Darwin