Boredom has began eating into me...

Last time i used to be a also hardcore online gamer. Waking up in the wee hours playing online game, Darkages. Which was then from Singapore server. Training and training non stop. After Singapore server closed down, i moveed to the US server. Which was also the same.

1 thing bad about this is i'm glued to the game and it makes me really lazy to go out but playing the game only. Of course there are many bad points about it. dip in result, growing fat at home =/ etc.

Eversince i left that game, there's not much game that can attract my attention and also due to nagging from Aunt. Playing everyday won't help me in anything. It just help to pass my time only. Just for relaxing maybe abit of Gunbound or CM03/04 or CS other then that nothing.

With the new super short timetable, i wonder how am i going to cope with that. Yup you heard me right. Complaining about the short timetable =/ I really need to look for something to do..

Was surfing the net when i came upon this story


A Love Story

She was not beautiful.

Nothing about her was extraordinary.

Nothing about her made her stand out in a crowd.

She grew up in a family of six and being the eldest, she learned about responsibility at an early age.

As she grew stronger and brighter, she instilled a sort of light and cheer to whomever she met.

She was not beautiful, but she made others feel better about themselves.

She meets a rebellious boy who thinks he is all man.

Befriending him, she teaches him.

She teaches him how to read and a little boost, the 'man' needed to go to college.

They become fast friends and she fell fast in love with her rugged handsome student.

The 'man' then finds himself in love with a girl.

A girl who was so beautiful.

Her hair was a hallow of light around her

Her eyes the bluest blue of the ocean.

'Like an angel' he tells his tutor, 'like a beautiful angel.'

The girl swallows a lump at her throat.

She was not beautiful.

She did not possess the heart of the one she loved, but she did not care.

As long as he was happy, she would be happy, or so she tried to.

She helped write the most beautiful letters to his angel. All the time visioning it was she herself receiving those very letters.

And so the girl helped him choose the right clothes, say the right words, and buy the
right gifts for his angel.

His angel brought him much joy and much pain to the girl who cried behind her smiles.

But that never stopped her from giving more than she will ever receive.

Then one day, the angel he loved left him for another man.

A richer more successful man.

The boy was stunned.

He was so hurt, he did not speak for days.

The girl went to him.

He cried on her shoulder and she cried with him. He was hurt and she was too.

Time went by and so wounds heal.

The boy realizes something about his friend/tutor. Something he never realized before.

How her laughter sounded heavenly and how her smiles brightened up the darkest days, or how simply beautiful she looked to him!

Beautiful. This plain, simple girl was beautiful to him. And he began to fall.

Fall so in love with this beautiful girl.

On one day, he picked up all his courage to see her. He walked to her house, nervous, and fidgeting. Running his thoughts over and over in his head.

He was going to tell her how beautiful she was to him. He was going to tell her how wonderfully in love he was with her.

He knocked. No one was home.

The next day, he found out that the beautiful girl he fell in love with had a brain tumor that put her into a coma.

The doctors were grim and the family decided to let her go.

One final time he got to see her. He held her hand. He stroked her hair and he cried for this beautiful girl.

He cried, but it was too late.

The beautiful girl was buried and the heavens broke.

Out in a beautiful spring shower, a cry for their loss.

She was the most beautiful girl in the world and she had taught the rebel boy-man to love and what it is to be loved.

She was the most beautiful girl in the world.


Look around. Aren't there a lot of plain faces? Take a good look. A real good look, or
you might just miss out that beautiful person. Forever.


Only boring people get bored.
-- Robin Beyer

Finally the NET is UP! Singnet was giving problem just now around 7-12pm due to high traffic towards US server. At that time i thought i got hit by virus cos net was running so slow. Guess not =D

Theres Good and Bad News...

Bad news

My ITE CERT might have 1 lesser subject Internet Marketing (IMK)

Going home super early after 1-2 hours lesson

Wasting time at home

Good news

if i drop IMK means i got even shorter period for class. Everyday 1-2 hours in sch.

1 less project to do and to stress =p

Plenty of time to spare


Aiyoooo i did say want to take up courses but till now haven't start looking for it..

I had no idea why i wrote those on Monday morning but that was my feeling at that moment. I'm not trying to tell other i'm feeling miserable or what but to just express my feeling althought i must admit i do must miserable...

Just bought a ankle weight at $40.95 for strengthening legs but my old injury on the left knee giving problem because of the heavy weight on the left ankle. Got to adjust the weights. *argh pain* Yar i'm weak =/

Some say i look fierce but if you think you got something to tell me go ahead. Don't beat around the bush. You hate, like or whatever just tell me straight not that i'm going to eat you up. Nah you don't have to bother how i feel. I'll take it as it goes. I did told a couple of them in my class. Well right now they change how i think and feel about them. Thats good. I find it hard to express someone i love. Feel kinda awkward like when you're face to face nothing to say so paiseh.. thats for me don't know how the other feels.

But there's something in particular which i really mind. You don't talk about my personal stuff, my family whom i love etc. Worst of all insulting them and it got nothing to do with you. I'm SERIOUS about this. Yar you can joke or whatever to a certain extent but a person's patience has limits and i don't find it funny. Know when to stop. Best of all don't tell me at all and don't let me find out you talk behind my back cos i'll hunt you down. You can try me. Imaging someone else talking about your family? I'm sure you don't like it right. Always think before you hurt other.

I always believe in respecting others. You respect me i'll respect you. Don't bully people and never let people bully you.

Added music, comment stuff and a new tag board !! YayYay its working I hope..


Reputation is made in a moment, character is built in a lifetime.
-- Deidre Skye

I've been going to sch early not a single period late. Waking up 4-5am really helps =/

Dreams... everyone have that. For me dreams are my aim which i can think very far ahead but when i realised that it can't be met or have it happen to what i expected, its kinda of disappointing. Worst of all knowing the result which you din't expected it. Mostly being hurtful rather then being happy.

Lets take a love relationship as an example. For myself the above quote says it all. I wanted A plan to work but it turn out to be C plan but sometimes rarely its blessing in disguise.

How can you when you tried hard but without having to think that you're not bothering the person?

How can you tell if that person you love is still giving you chance?

How can you tell if there still hope for it?

Maybe actually just wanted to be normal friend which will be the last reason i hate to think of... because i am still hoping.

So many how... lets just say i'm not experience in this yet or i think too much. Take it slowly but for how long? 1-2 year later? lol

So if you feel you can help mail me at lionel_wang85@hotmail.com cos i don't really feel comfortable talking about it.

A much clearer TimeTable as promise.

Alright time to go for School !!!

Dreams are what I am made of. Reality is what I am.
-- Clint Echols

Finally the barber is OPEN! He "off" for like two weeks best.. bwg aka nothing to say.

Well the BBQ was nice food food and more food ~.~|| Chicken wings, lamb chop, grilled lemon fish, satay stick with hotdog, capsicum, crabmeat and prawn on it, mango and strawberry with whip cream alot more stuff. Other relatives were there too.
After that, silbings, cousin and i went outside to play badminton. I din't know i looked like the target board or something. Shuttlecock was coming for me from all sides! even from my sis whose on the same team.. >.<

Saturday late afternoon went out with aunts. Guess where we went? If you did read the Saturday Straits Times about the farms around Kranji. Yup we went there! We went to the Goat, Vege, Fish and Frog Farm. First place was to the Goat Farm.Walking to the barn was horrible !! the smell was simply "wonderful" but when i heard the young goats making the sound "meeeh meeeh meeeh". The smell was out of my mind. The young goats was so cute. Feed them with dried shrubs which my aunt bought from the person incharge there. Next was the Vege Farm. Awww that place was closed. Din't manage to go in and explore but they were still selling some fresh vege. That place was own by Ivy Singh (president of Netball Singapore) and her husband. Next was the Fish and Frog Farm. Nothing much there but the feeling there was like in Malaysia. Thats a view of sunset from the Fish farm. nice huh? Its was close to evening so many other places were closed. Maybe we'll come back another day.



Next we procceded to Kranji Reservoir Park. Wooo DAMM NICE the place so windy better then east coast. From here we can see Johor, causeway bridge and also the sunset view awww so lovely best place for a couple...



Later at night i accompany my aunts to the nursery to buy CNY plants. So many lovely flowers and plants.



Last of all, Thanks Maria for the photos =D

Cool template? Simple and light. Might look girly to some but i like it.

Some of you might find the flower familiar cos its being used in my grp project and the name too. Last term when Mdm Hassan passed us the project template, i straight away thought of this because the colour matches with what Mdm Hassan had passed to us and the name was right too. Tranquility means a state of peace and quiet It matches our Coffin business. Lol Yar Coffin. An oblong box in which a corpse is buried. *winks*

Spent the whole morning searching and configuring the template. Sorry to those who tried to leave a comment in the previous template. That comment box was not working properly or whatever decided to remove it. After much whining from Weihao muhahaha no standard one.. he told me he type a long comment but the comment page was not working. LMAO so right now i'm still trying out the new comment thingy .

I'm now at Ang Mo Kio preparing tonight's family gathering BBQ. So why i'm typing my blog cos there nothing for me to do or maybe just lazy to help.

Please wait patiently for the new comment thingy.

. : : iNNeR ThOuGhTs : : .

BaCk!!! For 9 days i haven't blog. Laziness has come over me to blog.

I wonder why i continue to blog or start this blog for? is it to remind me of my happy and sad moments? to let the others know how i'm doing and feeling? having the responsible to update since its already here? to learn from my bad experiences in certain areas? I got no idea.. is it true that blogs often reflect the personality of the author?

Let's me see how should i start..

I'm been thinking about what Mr Faris said on his first lesson whose teaching us Enterprise Resource Planning (ERP). "What you want to be or do after gradation" I havem't really thought of that. In Sec Sch life i wanted to be a Soccer Coach to be the one to manage Singapore Team to World Cup. LoL =x hey anything is POSSIBLE. No one expected Singapore to win the Tiger Cup and maybe a Childcare teacher. Lol can you believe it? But now, i feel that i'm more suitable in the Army or Police. Not just those small ranking but be the best of the best ELITES. or MAYBE into political if Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew is my mentor. Lol sorry i'm crapping. So 4-5 months more till my National Service (NS) Should i sign on or into NS then come out and study.. serious thinking are needed hmmm

Thursday Angela accompany me back to hougang. Well actually i messaged her to accompany me back but the fact was i wanted to accompany her back. Feel bad having her to wait for me for 2 hours cos i finished class 2 hours after she finished. She wanted to wait and she was with her friends so i guess its alright. She's having her exam now so better don't distude her. All The Best!

This is my TimeTable For The Term abit blur and small will edit later going out now


TimeTable

As for today i din't go to school. I'm a good boy so don't think that i skip school *evil grins* I've almost completed the project that my group is working on, teacher had saw it and there was no PE so no Class for today.

Went out at 2pm. Met Yan Song and Erik at Yio Chu Kang MRT Station. We were heading for the Police Station HQ to ask about signing on all this stuff. But sad to say they told us you can find it on the internet.. LOL basket from tampines all the way just to have that answer =( i mean don't there have a inquire counter about this? bleh wasted my time coming down BAKA! We went to Ang Mo Kio for lunch and i bought the Jay Chou 2004 Incomparable Live CD for $20.95. Wooooo the neightbours are going to complain cos the music are ROCKING THE HOUSE!!! Hi-5 Surround sound Blah blah you name it i have it !!!








Today's preparation determines tomorrow's achievements.

. : : Second Day Of School : : .

Today is the second day of school. I have a total of 4 subjects and short timetable! Will upload the timetable into net later. Woo alot of spare time. Have to start looking for courses to "upgrade" myself. Lesson starts today. A short intro of the teacher and blah blah blah in Internet Marketing. It enters into my ear and out throught the other. Muhahaha still slacking

At Clementi central, there was a Pasar malam. i brought 4 jersey! Inter Milan, Holland, Man Utd and Barcelona. Actual per piece is $20 but that uncle give discount of $1.50 per jersey. Total of $74 !! School just started and i'm already spent that much ~.~|| Time to Save !!!

Oh ya i'm still getting up at 3-4am !! =( if this goes on, I can go for morning run before going to school. lmao

. : : Yawn : : .

Past few days i've been waking up at 4-5am !! If these goes on, i'm bound to be sleepy in class.

Anyway i went for a movie this morning at 10.50am
The Phantom Of The Opera
Woooo damm nice show. Its simply marvelous. The story of a disfigured musical genius who haunts the catacombs beneath the Paris Opera, waging a reign of terror over its occupants. When he falls fatally in love with the lovely Christine.

How did i know about this show? Well actually i was influenced by my Aunt whom i'm living with. She has the collection of the songs sang by Sarah Brightman. I liked the song alot. It express the feeling on the song.

. : : NeVer TaKe ThInG FoR GrAnTeD : : .

So whats with the topic !?

Tuesday

Meeting my classmates for soccer at Hougang as they don't know where the place we are playing at. I suggested to meet at Hougang Bus Interchange. So time to meet was 9.30am, total of 9 guys. Erik, Erik's friend, Howard, Eric, Arul, Aidil, Hungpoh, Calvin, Xinghong (was sick on monday but manage to recover on time @.@) and myself. As usual i'm on time AGAIN! 9.25am. Last to reached there was Aru;, Aidil and Xinghong. Told everyone to meet at 9am they don't want.. cos i expected them to be late so just right 9.30am a grace of 30min. Not that i'm really fussy about the time but almost everytime they are late
=( unless i'm meeting girls then i relax abit LMAO

Reached home at hougang about 4pm bath and baCk to sleep! Woke up about 9pm had my dinner. I have this problem. A pain on the chest not really pain its like uncomforable. From the neck downward the middle of the chest its like the muscle are being squeezed tightly. Because of this pain i was unable to sleep. This problem started a few years ago.

Wednesday

About telling my mum about it there goes the nagging asking me to see doctor. 7.30am went down to have breakfast and then to the Hougang Poly clinic. BLOODY HELL so many ppl waited so long... and it just open only. Actually I went to see the doctors in private clinic about it but they said no problem ~.~|| Ok back to Poly clinic, i was told to go for futher checks downstair using the Electro Cardiogram(ECG) so whats that? Is an electrical recording of the heart and is used in the investigation of heart disease. Gee heart disease interesting... the place was crowded with old folks !! and i'm the only few young ones Lol. The Doctor even ask me why i was here X.X what a joke.. was i afraid? nope die die lor I got nothing to lose.

Even after the ECG the doctor said i was alright. Hmmm asked me it i wanted to go to Tan Tock Seng Hospital (TTSH) for more checks.. with mum around of cos have to say YES. So next appointment on the 8th March 2005. 3 days after my Bday! Cool huh? =/ She told me incase i was to collapse no need to wait for the day but straight to Accident & Emergency (A&E) lol common sense. The clinic visit lasted 4-5 HOURS! =( From rainy morning to sunny afternoon and i was in my JACKET! Anyway i was well trained by the guys whom i always waiting for meetings. LMAO j/k guys


Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.
-- Norman Cousins

. : : AuntS aRe BaCk : : .

Awww been raining everyday !!!

Just got back from dinner at Swensen located at Tampines with aunts, uncle and brother. The aunt i'm staying with got back from Taiwan yesterday evening and the other aunt just touch down a couple hours from France. So 1 week of being alone with sibling is over. =(

The adults were talking about the Tsunami. What had happen blah blah blah. When i remember something I read on newspaper made me joined in the conversation. After what had happened they will have to rebuild this and that. Many children will become orphan. That is just the starting. It still have the disease part due to the exposed corpse, lack of food and water and many other factors. What pissed me off was during this recovery, some people take it a chance to steal, rape, kipnap and have fake donation drive. 7 adults raping a young girl after what she had overcome and now this. Children got kipnapped and sold as slave or be drug carrier. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? Those people better caught and get a super duper heavy jail term. I mean come on everyone is helping out and they are doing such thing. What a disgrace!!!

Last of all, we got to stand up and applause for the Aid workers. They are the HEROES. Going into a unknown country helping while their family is away from them.


Conscience is like a baby. It has to go to sleep before you can.
-- Jessamyn West

. : : NeW YeAr ReSoLuTiOn : : .

Last Year been a rather suck up year for me? Blah don't know why I say that. Maybe this might tell you why...

I've been wasting alot of time slacking infront of the computer. Need to find extra courses to upgrade myself if not I have nothing I mean NOTHING. I don't have a overall pass result in 'O' lvl cert, with a 'N' lvl cert I can't go far, currently in ITE studying Business Info Tech for 6 more months and WALA national services!! Almost 20 years down the road filled with playing, slacking and studying. Theres a point in life where you need to get serious.

In this world, they talk about CERT without it you can't go far. Yar, some might disagree with me cos from TV some successful people don't have a good qualification but end up very successful. You know why?
Because THEY ARE HARD-WORKING or THEY WORK FOR IT. Its either you work your ASS up or you're born with a Golden Spoon. There's no easy way up. Unless you can hit the jackpot Toto or 4D which is like 1 in a few million chance. *prays for it to strike* Bleh i forgot i don't gamble =/

Without the extra skills, I'll be at a disadvanage in the working force. So what if I have good financial support from my Aunts, they can't be always there for me forever right? I need to think for my future... so have you thought of that yet? I did.

Oh ya ALSO AIM FOR THE BEST not just a pass will do. I'm refering this to some of my friends. You know who you are.. althought its not my problem but I CARE!

Being loved from someone you loved is something so sweet that i can't find a word to describe. Even though it lasted for a few days. Haizzz lets take thing slowly as it goes. If you're suppose to be together, you'll be together no matter what. Thats what i think...

Maybe i should take up piano, drumming, driving lesson and MORE.. Aiya so many i want to learn... need to do some research first. Age is never a factor if you're willing to learn just like my Aunt i'm staying with. She is constantly upgrading herself. She keeps urging us to do this and that which is good for us but it really takes discipline to do that!!! can you or me do it?

What have i been blahing about.. *smack head* what a nightmare


The course of true love never did run smooth.
-- William Shakespeare

. : : HaPPy NeW YeAr : : .

Happy New Year Boys and Girls !

Got back home a couple hours ago. Met up with Jessica, Erik and Hungpoh at City Hall about 9.45pm. Going to watch a movie Kung Fu Hustle and meeting Wenyu and Eric at Suntec City. Almost full house and the movie SUCKS BIG TIME! OMG over lame till i never laugh. =( Maybe partly my mood. After the movie not sure where to go. We decided to walk to Esplanade to join in the countdown.

Wooo damm packed from the entrance till inside HUMAN JAM! Reached there just in time. 1 minute of silence for the people who die in the Tsunami and WALA HAPPY NEW YEAR. Well no fireworks due to recent happening as a respect. People behind were spraying.. those "thingy' don't know what you call them. Grrr the horrible smell. Had to push ourselves out from the place.

Some of us haven't eaten so we kept walking till we saw a coffeeshop near Bugis. Meanwhile i was busy smsing New Year greetings and make a couple of call to Taiwan and France to my Aunts =D France is like i think 7 hours slower then us so its not yet New Year for them. Everyone called some food and all of us shared. Erik, Eric, Jessica and Wenyu shared a Cab back home. Damm Hungpoh keep asking from the beginning is Huifen coming blah blah blah and then call her and met her. Grrr BAKA!. For myself, got to go home by cab $15 and little sis was at home alone!!! I bet she did enjoy being alone at home playing games till i was back =(

Overall still can if not i'm be spending New Year Eve playing games =/ oh ya i feel i was too quiet LOL nothing much to say. Maybe still don't know them well? or maybe the above above problem made me jealous? or I'm SIAO!? (MAD) LMAO


Faith makes all things possible. Love makes all things easy. Hope makes all things work.
-- Edgar Allen Poe