Sunday, October 31, 2004



Happy Halloween Day! or was it yesterday? Well today is the last day of this month. This month contains the best and worst moment of my life.
Best moment was spending time with my Dear, Angela and Worst Breaking off. (can't believe it, i'm crying while typing this blog.) crybaby ? you decide.

Firstly, no one is to be blame for this ending but myself. I got carried away thinking so far. Wishful thinking part of mine. Thought this relationship could never end but... never turn out what i expected.

From what she told me, she got a BF now. Good for her. Hope that the guy will Treasure and Love her like i do. (what am I talking about !!? trying to console myself ?? To hell with you Lionel!!)

Hmm i'll still be counting down to her birthday. You'll never know what will happen during this period. Maybe I disapper from this world, found someone else, she'll come back to me? (there i go again thinking..) Really hope so. Angela you're still my "BOOK" you know what i mean. If you have any problems, look for me. Hp, Msn, Email, DA any methods. Will get back to yuo ASAP.

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Misses Angela
96 days and counting


Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give -- which is everything
-- Joan Crawford




Woke up so late... 1pm+ Played CS, Utopia, logging in n out of Darkages waiting for Angela. Forgot she got classes today. Duh!
Today Silbing and I have 1 meal only thats dinner lol all not hungry... all trying to be "shen xian". (deity) like what Maria said. Haha. Glad that Maria is feeling much better.
Well Man Utd LOST to Portsmouth.. 0-2 BWG! I'm beginning to think whether to continue subscribing to the Sports Channel. They are going to increase the fee more then HALF! and i'm not paying to watch Man Utd LOSE -_-|
1 Good sign is that Angela is not hiding or avoiding me. Means i'm not a pest for the time being. =/ Cheers! ( See lar Lionel think so much make yourselve worry..) Maybe we or myself have take thing tooo fast. Slower the pace will be better.

Below are some pic from Sentosa


Half the Class only


Half the Guys


Calvin, Junhan, Myself


Erik , Myself, Aidil, Eric finishing up the food Muhahaha


Time to Go >.<


Misses Angela
97 days and counting


It is not how much we do, but how much love we put into doing it. It is not how much we give, but how much love we put into giving.
-- Mother Teresa

Saturday, October 30, 2004



25/10

On that day was raining heavily, so much thinking to do after that night. Hoping the lightning would struck me or cars bang me. Well din't happen... hmm i'm crazy to think of this..

26/10

After school, met Maria (cousin) to watch 4.45pm The Manchurian Candidate at Cineleisure. Alot of talking about brainwash a platoon of troops bleh bleh bleh... its a 2 hours show. After that we slack about from Cineleisure to PS walking, talking to each other trouble and problem. Haizzz, don't let me meet that guy who upset my cousin. Fucking Asshole Frag. Can't believe theres this type of guy in this world or maybe i haven't see the BIG world yet.. all this talking with my cousin make me realize all things are unpredictable and we got to face reality. But i'm not giving up on Angela. No way. Smsed her about myself feeling "alright" and asking her not to cry or blame herself over it. Well she did cried for 2 days.. how i wish i was with her. Maybe i thought the positive way, she cried means she did love me..? I'm so confused.

27/10-29/10

Nothing much happened. Still the same moodless Lionel in school unable to overcome what had happened. Buddys around me asking me to take it slow and easy bleh bleh bleh. Anyway I thx them for their concern.Hmm I did passed the 2 tests which i had promised to Angela. Well i set a target 5 Feb which falls on her birthday. Not sure if she has forgotten about me.. well i have not. How am i going to maintain the communcation between us ? sms ? Darkages ? Msn ? What should i do... Hope she don't think im a pest -_-|

Misses Angela
98 days and counting


It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone -- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
-- Jamie Yeo

Tuesday, October 26, 2004



For 3 days i have not been blogging. Alot of things happen. Lets start on...

Sat 23/10.

Stayed at home played games... that night my Aunt and Uncle was leaving for Japan. I'll be alone at home for 1 week.

Sun 24/10

Met up with Maria (cousin) and Bryan (brother) to catch a movie at Tampines Mall (TM) about 1pm+. As usual my treat again, we watched Ladder 49. I recommend this show! I learned some *what you call that* ways of life? Makes me think alot. Always cherish what you have cos you'll never know what will happen the next second. Before i met them, i smsed Angela about going to TM. She was there too with her mum and sister shopping. *grin* time to meet mother-in-law =x anyway never saw them.

That night was the Big Match, Man Utd vs Arsenal at 11pm. Man Utd won that night 2-0 but i was not really concern about it.

At round 11.35pm, i got an sms from Angela. She wanted to break off... at that moment my world came crashing down. What did i do to make her say that ? did i do or say anything wrong ? at the time i was feeling confuse, sad, angry.. She said she loved someone else.. but don't tell me that durig those time when we were together there was no feeling? her reply was feeling as a good friemd.. omg i can't believe it. She even ask me to scold or shout at her but do you think i'll do that? NO AND NEVER. I think shes hiding something, not about she loving someone else (from what i feel). Maybe she don't want those that are also around her to get sad or her parent or something.. thats why i was sacifice. Not that i'm trying to be smart here.. but eversince i met her she was more concern about others then herself.

Angela, I really hope you're reading this. I DON"T BLAME YOU AT ALL! Remember what i told you in game? Always love you and will never hurt or break you heart. I'm hoping you'll give us both a chance to be together and more time. I really do. Because to love someone you need time to develop it. I know its not easy but only time will tell. Remember that email you sent me? about the promise that when you end a relationship, you will not turn back and let the relationship have another turn. Have you ever think of the positive side? not all relationship always turn up in the bad side. Yes I agree with you that when a relationship is broken, there will be a crack. But it can be heal as long there is TIME and PATIENCE. Dear i really miss you.
Please come back to me. No use avoiding me cos I still LOVE you. The more you avoid me the more i think of you.

Misses Angela


Love doesn't hide. It stays and fights. It goes the distance. That's why God made love so strong. So it can carry you. All the way home.
-- Franklin P. Jones

Saturday, October 23, 2004



Yay!! Last day of the week. Today alot of ppl never come for class cos there were no lessons and some grps did their Power Point Presentation (PPT). Too bad i got to come for the PPT.. Quick and easy presentation. Finished within 20 mins.

After that, we proceeded to Sentosa straight from school ! Our teacher jio us to go. Reached Harbour Front at 12pm and had our lunch there as its much cheaper then inside Sentosa...

From there, we took the Sentosa bus inside paid $3 each and took the Blue line bus to Siloso beach. No sun , no rain but cloudy. Perfect whether? We played volleyball, soccer using the volleyball =/ and others. Haha the volleyball let us kick till no air. The best was playing at the sea. Muhahah threw Junhan into the sea ! SONG BO! The whole thing was recorded in the Digi Cam. The sea water is so salty and my eyes... kinda got blind by the water.. it HURTS! Now at home still having the salty taste and feeling.. Hmm waiting for Junhan to online in msn to send me those photos and most important the Video! Everything finished at about 7pm+

Later on i went back to Tampines. Met angela and her friends. Accompany her to wait for her bus home. Miss ya Dear!

Loves Angela


Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their hearts but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours
-- Max Lucado


Thursday, October 21, 2004



Yesterday night was busy doing game stuff din't have time for blog. Well i'll do it now. Same as any other day, late as usual. This time around i miss the busstop which i was suppose to alight. Got to walk 1 busstop back.. what was i doing ? day dreaming
No lessons again.. suprisingly our class CA (Form Teacher) ask us want to go Sentosa on Friday 0.0. Maybe going. After class, went back straight to accompany Angela online =/

Loves Angela Forever


For you see, each day I love you more. Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow.
-- Rosemonde Gerard


Tuesday, October 19, 2004



Late for class again ! Geeeee. Anyway i forgot all about what happened in school.

I was so happy to see Angela again =) Meet her at Compass Point, Sengkang. Accompany her to buy presents for your god-brother and friends. So guess where we went for our first date? Libaray !!! of all places.. awww i feel that its a bad starting.. Compass Point doesn't have much places to hang about.. with 2 hours, i got to treasure it.. every second of it. Hmm after that sent her right about 10 steps away from her Doorsteps =/ She got visitors at home thats why. erm i wonder when is the next date... Ok thats all for today.

Loves Angela


Faith makes all things possible. Love makes all things easy. Hope makes all things work.
-- Richard Darwin

Monday, October 18, 2004



Well well late for the 1st period for Class. Reached school at 10:30am? Clementi was raining ! Wooo forgot when was the last time i walk alone in the rain kinda cool =D
Got back my test result for last week friday test 40/50! ( Dahdah remember you promised me something? )

Today no lessons at all.. nothing much. Played soccer for about 2 hours under the HOT SUN.. so shiok first rain then hot sun.. possible for me to fall ill?

I think thats all for today. Maybe i should start talking about myself my history my past in blog. Well do stay tune for it =/ Can't wait till tomorrow to meet my DahDah again!

Love you DahDah


Before one can know what love really is one must have a fall and then pick oneself up.
-- Leo Tolstoy



Sunday, October 17, 2004



What time did i woke up this morning..? 10:30am? Sat and Sun everytime automatic 10:30am without fail if at home. Don't know why...

Wah when was the last time i stayed online in Darkages ( Online Game ) for so long.. Almost whole day in Darkages with my DahDah ( thats Angela ). Today she asked me some questiions, well i know how she feels.

From my personal view, I feel that she might think i'm using her as a Sub for the girl i used to like, shes not sure if her mum allows her in this relations and many others.

Well theres 1 important thing i learned, if someone rejected you, you got to face it. I mean if someone rejected you, no use going full force for her/him. You can get the body but not the soul. whats the use? 1 Sided Love? You in the end will suffer more right? Studys go down bleh bleh bleh people around you might get affected too. Theres a big BUT because sometimes perseverance might pay off. Althought i know Angela might read this and put me in a disadvange spot but i'm stating the FACT!
No wonder my mum think i'm over-mature -_-| like think so far far.

I know myself, i mean you can feel whether you got chance anot with the special person. No use cling onto something you know you got 0% chances and then hurting ourselve... right? The best part is when the person you love said NO. Time to move on man.. take it like a MAN ( I think thats what i did ) That feeling that i was having when she said no was like no sad or happy. Just another normal calm day. Next few day in school was like hyper-active..everything very ON. ( You can ask my buddys in ITE if its the true )Althougt action speaks louder then words. I'm not sure how to make Angela understand that. She even say if she die suddenly ( touch wood ) will i just forgot her straight away...? x.X DahDah ah.. thats any feeling le..

For the mum part.. hmm i also can understand that ( everything i can understand -_- )
Her mum feels that shes still young, guys might take advantage of her and so many other reasons. Well as an elder Brother to my sister, i too got that feeling. I will surely bash up that guy if he really try to be funny with my sister. Its just the normal feeling for all human beings to those they care and love. Its natural.

Hmmm today "essay" touch on human thinking? LOL Future Psychologist BWG! Anyway whatever i wrote are from my personal views. Each got their own way of thinking. Theres no wrong and right. Its up to you to decide.

1 Important point I want to make clear to everyone is that ever since this blog thingy started. Whatever i said are the truth and nothing but the truth and again its up to you to decide whether i'm saying the truth anot.

Love you DahDah


If you don't love, you can't live; if you don't live, you can't love.
-- Jason Benson



Saturday, October 16, 2004



Ermm same reason as previous for not blogging on thursday. As for friday.. the WAD test was so freaking easy but i think i still manage to pass?

I was looking forward to friday becasue i'm meeting Angela at her class Chalet at Downtown East! Met her at 5.30pm at the chalet entrance though that was the 2nd day of the chalet. I went to meet her classmates in the room. Wahh total darkness in the room, everyone cramp inside the room. Someone was playing PS2 RPG game, while the rest was watching.. like so exciting -_-|||

Later that, they procceed to the BBQ pit to start. Meanwhile Angela introducted me to her classmates. Let me see if i can rememeber all.. total there were erm more then 10 less then 15 including me ^_-? Hsien wei, Valdric, Hanning, Christina, Hui Hui, Yun Zhi, Percy, Kaili, Johnson, Kelly, Binglun, Poh Kui and Kian Hui? with some help from friendster and Angela =/ ( Hope i did not miss out anyone? ) BBQ till 8.30pm everyone wanted to watch the Singapore Idol result. All the foods were brought up.

After clearing the foods, here comes the entertaining part. Majong first then PS2 ( the RPG game i mention early on ) till so late or early? 4-5am? Well for me about 1am+, i went to the next room rest to sleep.. Angela and 2 other friends was there too. Well I manage to spend some quaility time with Angela =D ( Think straight for those who are reading this -_- ) Around 4am cannot tahan ( What are you thinking? ) too tired doze off... Zzzzz.

Before checking out at about 11am-12pm the next day which is today, poor hanning ( correct spelling? ) kena pillow Bang LOL and had lunch with them at the food court. Then.. slacked around Tampines Mall and Century Square till 3pm and Wala ! Home, Bath, Sleep ! Wa lao about 8pm-10pm Man Utd - Birmingham draw.. BWG! saw the Total 90 Gold shoe wore by Rio and Rooney kinda sucky colour.. oh and also the CPU is BACK! hmm time for second round of sleep...


Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear.
-- Javan

Wednesday, October 13, 2004



oh well i was too tired to write blog yesterday night. SVQ Project and 2 CA tests PBR and WAD are coming up on this coming thurday and friday...

Today reached school at 10.30am, supposed to have lesson till 4:15pm but somehow all the lessons for today were CANCEL! should i feel happy or sad? happy because i got to release VERY early or sad because i traveled from Tampines to Clementi for nothing.. well you decide. SmS Angela about it but she just woke up =/ aww sorry to wake you up.

Hmm after that my grp of buddy ( Vinz, Weihao, Junhan ) decided to go for lunch. We decided to have lunch at Seoul Garden so we went to bukit Gombak or Batok ( forgot where was it.. )but there was no Seoul Garden. Next place we went was Boon Lay's Seoul Garden. Hmm my first time there, very crowd place and alot of shops. Each person paid $14 bucks for it. Omg Vinz's a BIG eater! BWG! I was the first one to be FULLED. Kind of wasted my $$ eat so little so fast full.. hai then we went window shopping after that we went back home. Boon Lay to Hougang MRT Station lost count of how many stations i went passed, sleeping all the way. Pass few nights having difficulty sleeping tossing blanket, pillows around and waking up. Not sure whats happening.

Back at Hougang, wanted to meet Angela but she was tired after a day outing at the most boring places. Guess where? =x and then bath and straight to the bed! After that collected my uniform and back to Tampines. OMG forgot about tomorrow having PBR test haven't study yet but typing blog now and feeling sleepy. Am i going to fail..?


Do you know how painful it is to tell someone you love him and not hear him say it back?
-- Monica


Monday, October 11, 2004



Today i seems to be over the moon? what happen? i'm not sure either... looks like i got over with it? or maybe something else?

WAD mock paper today and i forgot about it totally... then most of us persuded Mdm Hasnah to have a open book and it worksss. Sweet =D other then that nothing else. I notice myself not to myself today? You might think, huh what is Lionel talking about? Today talk more then usual, making so much noise during soccer time and using the 4-letter word so often (for today only!). aiyo.. CPU not back yet sadded >.<

Recently i get to know this interesting girl better. I know her throught an online game "Darkages" from my gaming Bro. Its like we two have that "click" we been talking in msn and smsing each other for the pass few days. Haha from what we chat, she is someone who cares more about other then herself, she rather have people around her to be happy then herself, weird huh? (from my point of view) and willing to lent a listening ear to me even though we are 2 strangers. We two were like sharing each other problems.. 2 stangers sharing secrets.. eh? Will i don't mind at all as long both of us are comfortable with it. Hmm lets see what this can turn into...


You win more friends in life by being interested in others than trying to get others interested in you.
-- Dale Carnegie


Sunday, October 10, 2004



Wa lao... yesterday night cannot write blog. CPU down and the expert took the modem and CPU to repair .. actually i thought was the 2nd comp got problem but it was the main.. BWG! This morning woke up at 12pm+ bo comp to use so i sleep til so late. Had a LATE breakfast and went to look for VCD which i have yet to see " MY SASSY GIRL " nice show! pity the guy but in the end they are back together. Awwwwwwww love story again, abit of Super Sunday then back to take a nap.. LOL

About 5-6pm went to the expert's house to check on the CPU nothing much.. took back the modem, leaving the CPU for futher checking and had my dinner at another house at AMK. With the modem i'm able to do my blog for today... not sure how long is it going to last...


When I find myself fading, I close my eyes and realize my friends are my energy.
-- Dale Carnegie

Friday, October 08, 2004


Fine day huh? Skip progress test during the first 2 lesson but sad to know it was postpone! grrr wasted my attentance.. anyway lesson as usual for SVQ and FMK then 1 hour of break till 1.30pm where everyone meets outside the admin office for our BIT department outing.
The first place was to clarke quay to take the river cruise. That was an enjoyable ride along the Singapore river. Maximum on board was 12 or 13.
The next place was to the PUB Newater Visitor Centre. Man that was kind of boring but you'll get to know how the water was treated before we drink it.
Remember the pair of shoes i mention yesterday? Wooo my uncle bought it for me at Takashimaya ! Sweeet =D
Well today marks the 1 week of my blog and also the end of my emotional roller coaster ride.


A friend is one who is there to care
-- Elbert Hubbard

Thursday, October 07, 2004


No school for me today due to NS medical checkup for me... majority of the guys in my class have met together to go today. 9am...at CMPB so many stations.. Blood test, Dental, X-ray, IQ test and lots more. Just the IQ test alone takes about 2 hours! the last few parts of the iq test anyhow do already. Man staring at the comp for about 2 hours solving question not games leh what the.. in the end i got Pes B. Wa lao.. hoping for Pes A. really leh..
After that we waited for one another to have lunch. Split into 2 grps half went sushi buffet the other half went Tiong bahru plaza for KFC. Then we slack around there "window shopping"? haha. There a pair of shoes that caught my ATTENTION at Royal sporting house! Wa lao... so nice blue/white total 90 kao $80 bucks! Last Pair Size 12 ! I'm getting it no matter what =( damm when reached tampines i search all the shops for that shoes. No shops in Tampines was selling that COLOUR! wa kao... wasted sia..


All that you are, all that I owe to you, justifies my love, and nothing, not even you, would keep me from adoring you.
-- Marquis de Lafayette

Wednesday, October 06, 2004


I was early for class today! 9:15am on the dot! normal lesson as usual nothing special today except my bros put me plane. I asked them wanna go gym, say okok last minute change mind.. its ok! i'm forgiving LOL and the sch rock band was performing not sure is that a rock band or what.. suddenly thought of delicating a song to her but awww don't know those memeber can't pull strings..

Past few days has been a emotional roller coaster ride for me... i'm not sure what shes hinting or is she hinting about..? I'm really lost and confused. What shoud i do next? Some of my bros suggest i should give up and others ask me to go for it but deep down in me i wish to build a relationship with her. I have put my heart 100% to it. The recent drop of tears for her was for real! That was my 1st time for a gal that i really really like. Well some of you might think its silly but i don't think so and i hope every drop was worth it. I really do. Althought i know its a 1 sided love, the way she love the other guy is the same as i love her soooo deep down. What should i do now....?


All the passions make us commit faults; love makes us commit the most ridiculous ones.
-- Duc de La Rochefoucauld


Tuesday, October 05, 2004


Bleh skip this morning assembly as usual at 7:55am wasting time.. 8:15am class starts. Reached school at 9:15am but somehow i THINK the teacher still mark my attentance for the 1st hour as late for 20mins.. Moody the whole day. Why? nah long story. Nothing much for today but during WAD lesson Mdm Hasnah called some of the guys out including me ( don't worry not telling us to get out of the class =X ) to promote and sell some IT Stuffs. Anyone interested?
Call my Hp or Email or Msn Me =D
Cash Before Delivery

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well well THXZ to my Brosss for the concern who were asking about my lousy mood and Mdm Hasnah who called to check on me =D Awwwww what a teacher *cher you know what to do when marking the CA ah* LOL BWG

To her, sorry my fault misunderstood you


A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same.
-- Elbert Hubbard

Monday, October 04, 2004


Woooo late for sch on the 1st day of the week. Suppose to wake up at 7am but then, you know off the alarm and went back to sleep...*smart move* LOL BWG. Class started at 9:15am, got there at 10am so waited and met Erik, Jess and Peiyin at the canteen for the next lesson at 11:15am. WAD Theory class for about 2 hours for the start of the week what the... well something interesting happened to Vinz and Hao haha 1st our grp which was siting right at the back talking and Mdm Hasnah warned us but those 2 still carry on whacking each other with the revision paper and cher saw it and told them I DON"T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE GET OUT NOW LOL BWG! Thx to them theory class time reduced! *thx bros on behalf of the class* haha. Next lesson was on FMK, nothing much happen except for the other grps presenation. Follow on was the break time 1 hour of SOCCER under the BLOODY SUPER HOT SUN... sweet ah? What you expect for the love of sports? carry on with 2 hours more of FMK... and WALA! Home!

I was thinking of accompany her home but due to me being quiet not asking her about it.. thats it.. do i call that a miss chance? LAME... man i got to overcome that speechless problem =( Where's the aura of toughness and having the GUTS from my sec sch days? btw did i really have them at first? or GONE? POOF? i'm getting too emotion over this... won't you be suprised if i told you i just cried? Cried over what? her? maybe? WTF i'm not sure it is worthy to do that.

PS Don't mention about this to me


A relationship that draws on tears is not love; it is merely memories that cannot be forgotten.
-- Bernard Yen


Sunday, October 03, 2004


Awww woke up the same timing again.... damm it my the other comp down!!! networking problem -_-| can't do much for it to work... got to get help from experts. Ok, suppose to meet Erik and Jess at Sengkang MRT about 3pm but i reached there 3.30pm.. and they were still late! Well they were stuck at home due to the heavy rain and i'm a forgiving person so its ok lol. We went to converse shop to buy a pair of shoes for her. Wooo nice price but its not the money that counts, its the heart. I did not know we were giving the gift on the day itself, i was not mentally prepared ! and furthermore i was not invited to her house nor was she expecting me there! After slacking around at compass point till the "right time", we made our way there..

Cool huh? The 1st time accompany her to the lift 2nd time in the House -_-? She might be thinking WTF is Lionel doing here ??!! kind of lame. Time passes in there quickly i din't even notice the time ticking away.. i was sooooo quiet all the time don't know what to do and what to say. i think thats the biggest problem about myself. If i had to be myself, i'm really quiet. Unless you want me to start crapping rubbish, like so fake not the real me!! I'm in a dilemma. What should i do..?


A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous.
-- Ingrid Bergman

Saturday, October 02, 2004


Hmmm.. woke up bout 10.30am first thing first ON THE COMPUTER !!! then proceed with the usual morning thing which everyone does... what a long day ahead.. watched the VCD "The Last Of The Mohicans" nice show, abit of love story awwww.. then slack infront of the computer playing CS and of cos other games too. Haizzz BORING hate this week's weekend it seems so long for the day to pass can't wait till monday to see "everyone" haha. Need to find myself some stuff to do. Did SVQ project research and play around with the blog. 30 more hours to see her

A huge part of real love is constant forgiveness.
-- Glen Close

Friday, October 01, 2004


Hmmm its Children Day ! aww miss those days in primary sch.. the fun days are over, the innocent looks on everyone. What a day it has been for me, fever for 1 whole week still able to play soccer with my classmates under the rain haha what a joke and they said i was man of match!. Everyone today in class was not in the mood to study due to FMK presentation. Nervous look on everyone... but in the end, only 2 grps managed to present bacause not enough time. After that, waited for my grp of buddys to do their punishment on cleaning up the classroom. Well actually not waiting for them but her =/sorry guys! As usual took the bus+MRT back home. Accompany her to bank and went to converse shop, she saw a bag which i think she really like. Shall i buy it for her? Took a bus with her back to her house chit-chat and laughter along the way. Hmm.... sweet lets hope its a good beginning for me.


A man has choice to begin love, but not to end it.
-- Bon