Monday, February 28, 2005

I got this from my email @.@ hmm does it have the gals version?
Its like always the guys breaking the gals heart but not the other way. Yes most of the guys but not all does that. I'm one of them THAT DOES NOT...
Enjoy reading


ALL GUYS OUT THERE MAKE SURE UR READ THIS. LOOK HERE.

Don't take girls for granted. You don't
know what they have done for u.
Message: Love the girl in your heart, not in your
mind. If you base your relationship on feelings, it
will fail for there are ups & downs in feelings. Girls
are there to be loved, not toyed around.

Love her for who she is. Don't even think about
changing any bit about her. 6 billion people in this
world & 6 billion different personalities. She's
special & she will stay that way. You change any
part of her, you'll change her forever. Don't
substitute her for anyone else, they are just unique
in their own ways.

Love whole-heartedly. She sacrificed a lot for you
so you'd better really treasure her. She could
have just got up & date a so much more dashing
guy in town but she chose you instead all because
of love. So love her guys, not play with her. Don't
just get the girl to beg you to stay or whatsoever. If
you're with her, love her.

Don't cause a strain in the relationship, you'll end
Up loving each other out of pity or charity, that's
not respecting love at all. Respect love the way it
is & everything will be the best it can be. I've been
there & I know how it feels.

Don't expect perfection from her. She's the only
one in the world & she's done the best she could.

Like another girl while you're in a relationship?
Then I think it's time you remain single for a while.
Don't go around breaking girls' hearts, it's the most
tragic thing to do.

Tell the truth, never hide anything from her. If you
want her to tell you everything, do the same.

Don't go calling other girls "honey" or "darling",
how would it feel if your girl calls other guys the
same way? Be faithful, enough is enough.

Socialise only when you're single. You socialise &
flirt around is to get the girl of your dreams. Get it
over when she's already yours, don't ask for more.

It never kills to be romantic. Think, be
flexible. Getting that diamond ring isn't the only gift
for her. Be realistic, she's human & she lives life
just like you. Something sweet & simple always
get the job done.

Money doesn't exist between couples, it's the love.

Never promise her that you'll love her forever
because your forever might end the next day. Love
her as if each day is the last.

Sweet talking only applies for singles, not for
attached guys. Do that & you'll really break your
girl's heart.

It isn't good being too well-known too, it'll give her a
sense of insecurity. Remember, INSECURITY.

Promise her & make sure you never break the
promise. Swear to her & make sure you live up to
your word. Pledge your love to her & her alone.

Loving her is giving her your heart to break it but
trusting her not to. Same goes for her, giving u her
heart means allowing u to break it and trusting u
not to. Instead, she'll cherish it & protect it.
Shouldn't you do the same thing as well? That's
love.

Give her your heart, your life, your everything. Lay
down your life & prepare to die for her when the
need arises. But stay strong & live through another
day, she can never live without you.

Never, ever walk out of her life. She won't just cry
her heart out & carry on living as per normal, she'd
die.

Its her heart that you've broken, how would you
ever know how she feels?

Winning a girl's heart isn't the final victory. Don't
leave her once you've won her love. Love her all the
way till the end of time, love her till marriage, love
her till old age, love her till death. If you can love
her till the end of time, you've earned the honor &
respect for you've truly loved her.

She chose you because she believes that you can
fulfill your promise. Win her heart & love her over.

Remember, the girl isn't a trophy for display, she's
someone to love, not to show off to your "friends".

Friday, February 25, 2005

I'm still curious whose that underscorer. I thought was my classmate but i guess i was wrong. Maybe just a random person looking around.

A missed call yesterday on my HP while i was sleeping. My HP is on 24/7. Private number, wonder who was that. Called once and nv call again.

I've been thinking of a conversation I had with a friend couple days ago. I really wouldn't encourage them to carry on. You once told me or made me feel that you were concerned about how other around you feel bad or sad when you're with someone. Thats why you broke up willing to sacrifice your own happiness because of how other feel. But now its the other way around. You're happy now with someone and doesn't get bother by how other feel. That's good cos you can find your own happiness. But have you thought the person you're with is wrong? Seriously speaking. I'm sure some of your friends have talk about it with you. I'm sure theres someone else who can give you double or triple what you're feeling now as long as you'll willing to give the person a chance. Yes, just by talking i can say its not my problem but deep deep down me as a friend i want to help but i don't know how. Its true that not my problem has become a problem for myself cos i've been thinking how to help for days.

If you're really sick or in real pain do go see the doctor. Remember you told me that your grandfather ask your mum not to cane you or somesort. Know why? because he doesn't want you to get hurt or be in pain. I'm sure your grandfather will ask you see the doctor if he knows you're in pain or sick. So stop beinging stubborn and listen to me. Yar won't die if you don't see the doctor but if have serious illness how? Those who care for you? your parents, sibling, friends, me? I myself also don't like to see doctor. I have chest pain for years but after thinking what if I die? Selfishly thinking, the most only ppl cry thats all. What about the responsibly towards my parent and sibling? I don't wish to see anything happening to you. Arghh i got a hospital appointment next week 3rd March.. -_-||

After all those advise I have given, I hope you'll listen to me althought you din't want me to mention this. If I don't mention this who will wake you up? Do some self soul searching. Maybe those small problem I made it sound like big problem. But I'm a complicated thinker who think far ahead. Thats just me. What I said might even backfire causing you to hate me. But I don't care, if hating me cause you to realise what I said thats good if not I also don't know.

Call me if anything coops up. Will be at Hougang meet Mr. Yu and Gang. Ciao!


P.S. Sorry about mentioning your grandfather.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Yesterday was just another day.

I was supposed to pass over the E-Business Project(EBP) to Jesscia to follow up on the report writing but then i guess its abit too plain. Maybe not to her liking cos she's hoping for A for the subject. My bad. Hmm just added some picture and editing to the web. Should be ok or else she'll go nagging again. Lmao

During Enterprise Resource Planning(ERP), we had to exchange and mark the Progress Test paper which was done last week. Eeek nearly flank 26/50 Thats the result for last minute study. Like an hour before test starts while i was on the train. Boring!!

I think Calvin brought his Football Manager(FM) game to sch and installed it. He and Aidil rename the players name in Manchester United and replace it with theirs, Weihao, Hungpoh, Arul and myself -_-|| During matches, Aidil was talking loudly
cos "the player with his name" on the game was misses chances to score so was Calvin... crazy fellows. Lucky we were having 15min break from lesson or else they might have their arses kicked out.

Today

Just recieved an email from David Lee my class advisor(CA). Cool from today onwards I don't have to go classes on Tuesday and Friday (half-day) *runs around madly* Althought i've not been going on Tuesday since I last passed up my ISP.

Did editing on the EBP Webby, research on ERP project and some self-study. Yup you heard me SELF-STUDY. Lol you might think i'm kidding. Seriously i was doing self- study but gave up when i thought of her. I did tried to concentrate on other thing but its damm FUCKING HARD.

Shall sign off here. Will be watching soccer at 3.30am ^_^

Sunday, February 20, 2005

Human's mind is kinda complicated. One minute you're thinking about this and next you're thinking about something else. Weird huh?

One minute i was talking about minimize the contact with her but yesterday i was smsing her. what the.. and this morning i even dreamed of us being together thats the 2nd time >.< Does that count as a nightmare? =X

Was in her blog awhile ago,

Oh.. erm... to some FRIENDS out there...
I'm attached. And it has been some time already.
And I'm very happy now.
Aye.. Just suddenly wanna let you know it.
Sorry...
Just hope that you can find the right girl for yourself.

Was that aiming for me? Well IF its for me, SILLY GAL whats with the sorry again -_- curiosity really killed the cat but sometimes its better to know the fact earlier althought I knew the result and I was clinging onto it. I guess its her second boyfriend after me. I'm neither sad nor happy just normal hearing this. I'm cool with it and actually happy for her knowing she is very happy now. :p If you ever need a listening ear or shoulder to lean on, I'll be there. *winks*

Its ok to have relationship but if one side is serious about it and the other party is playing around please stop. Someone is gonna to get their feeling hurt badly. Even if you know its like that but you still carry on, just be sure the person don't get to over serious. Know what i mean? Nope I'm not bad mouthing anyone or is it my problem. Its just me, personal view, the thought of it makes me type all this down.

For me, myself, its the responsibility of loving, taking care and being faithful to the person I really love and maybe getting marry. I know its still a long way ahead and not just the loving feeling will led you to marriage, there's other factor too. what about you?

"Getting into a relationship isn't all about feelings, cause feelings may die out after a while so its the rationality in the relationship that makes it last."

agree?

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Dear diary...

Things sort of went up and down... and I think I won't be able to endure...
At times, things went wrong, I really tried to look at them from a positive point of view but..

I really need to look back what i said on Monday. Yes, i wanted to minimize all contact with Angela so i can somehow reduce the love thing but not forgetting her as a friend.I thought that was the faster way to kill off that feeling but i was wrong Even thought i remove all contact i mean ALL but its already in my memories with just one last look.
Was curious, so went into her blog late last night. Now i'm feeling like a JERK. The thought of having her to even feel she wanted to cry makes me like a JERK. I hated when guy made a gal shed tears. I can't believe i'm one them. I hope it doesn't affect her studys in anyway. Maybe she misinterpret what i said or perhaps i din't made it clear. I'm very sorry for what i said. There's always a place for her in my heart. I still hope to accompany her back home someday. I can't let go...

Today i nearly overslept.. thanks to my cousin's sms woke me up. Was having my runs 1.5km but i was having tummyache. Its pain !!! but i still took part walking. After that was better, joined in a game of soccer under the blazing sun. I lasted about 1 hour then i quited cos PAIN was back.

Right now i'm having fever with headache its damm spinning and spinning none stop. Maybe i missed her...

Monday, February 14, 2005

Happy Valentine's Day

I guess its all over. Another chapter of my life ended just like that. Its part and parcel of life right or am i wrong?

Do I blame her for anything? nope, for me loving her is already not enought where do I got the time to blame her so you don't have to apologize to me. Its alright. Maybe its not my time to be in love.

Have to shift my focus on other things as some say time will heal. Minimize all contact with her till i can regard her as a friend. Arghh.. its so hard. But hey if you need help, i'm more then willing to help you. You still got my contact i suppose cos by the time this blog is posted, all contact related to you should have been deleted. I think its the best way for me to stop all those feelings to continue flowing...

To fall in love is always easy
To start a relationship is always simple...
To build it, is always tough...
To maintain it, is 'better said than done'...
To break off, is 'easier said than done'...
To remain friends after u broke off, is never possible...
To forget the memories is 'always doing but never succeeding'...
To heal the pain within is hard and tough and never near simple...
But one has to try to heal your own heart...
The heart belongs to u...
If u don't heal it and have a space for someone to walk in,
The heart will always be sealed,
Memories will never be forgotten,
The pain will never go,
And u will never move on from where u started...


The History of Valentine's Day

Every February, across the country, candy, flowers, and gifts are exchanged between loved ones, all in the name of St. Valentine. But who is this mysterious saint and why do we celebrate this holiday? The history of Valentine's Day -- and its patron saint -- is shrouded in mystery. But we do know that February has long been a month of romance. St. Valentine's Day, as we know it today, contains vestiges of both Christian and ancient Roman tradition. So, who was Saint Valentine and how did he become associated with this ancient rite? Today, the Catholic Church recognizes at least three different saints named Valentine or Valentinus, all of whom were martyred.

One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men -- his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.

Other stories suggest that Valentine may have been killed for attempting to help Christians escape harsh Roman prisons where they were often beaten and tortured.

According to one legend, Valentine actually sent the first 'valentine' greeting himself. While in prison, it is believed that Valentine fell in love with a young girl -- who may have been his jailor's daughter -- who visited him during his confinement. Before his death, it is alleged that he wrote her a letter, which he signed 'From your Valentine,' an expression that is still in use today. Although the truth behind the Valentine legends is murky, the stories certainly emphasize his appeal as a sympathetic, heroic, and, most importantly, romantic figure. It's no surprise that by the Middle Ages, Valentine was one of the most popular saints in England and France.

Sunday, February 13, 2005

How should i start... i've been rather "busy" not motivated to blog and so on.. Even if i got the time to blog i would delay it and then forget about it later on. Yar, I know its lame.

Lets start on

5th Feb..

Cool it was Angela B'Day ^_^ Remember i went to the nursery around Thomson Rd to shop for Chinese New Year plants when i spotted their shop website. I thought it would be better if I order flowers to her house. My first time sending flowers to a girl @.@

Wanted everything to work out as smooth as possible but there was trouble..

I don't know her address althought i sent her back before so decided to ask a couple of her friends but they were tight-lipped about it. I had to make a trip down myself to collect "information" double and triple check to make sure i wrote the correct address. There was this tricky part regarding the road name. I checked the Street Directory. There was 2 road name.. had to check the net for the exact street name. Lucky me...

The form of payment.

I had to borrow Junhan's Debit Card and I feel uneasy having someone else password relating to important stuff so i had to go Junhan's house to do the booking. After 2-3 hours its still not SENT! No wonder ppl are still uncertain about the security and other problems on the net. Its a long story during the process of booking but in the end it can't send. Had to redo it at my house.

Choosing the type of flowers.

Din't wanted to chose the Ferrero Rochers bouquet knowing that she dislike chocolates

Chosen this

Borrow the language of flowers to express your heart's desire. Our pink roses speak of love, admiration and perfect happiness. Arriving with Lucas Bear in a basket encircled with baby white feathers.

Nice? Will everything on the webby was nice. Glad that she likes it...

Its just flowers n bear that i sent to her like a normal friend but i'm still hoping to be with her...althought i keep telling myself not to expect much from this. silly? fool? whatever you think.. Kept telling myself to move on but i can't

Lastly I really have to thanks Junhan if not there will not be flowers and bear =(

If someone comes into your life and becomes a
part of you but for some reasons he/she couldn't stay,
don't cry too much...
Just be glad that your paths crossed and;
somehow he/she made you happy even for a while.

Feb 9th

About 12noon went to my mum side grandparent's house. Kinda sick and tired last night can't sleep tossing and turning cause my chest was in pain again.. Was not really interested how many hongbao i got or what.. was good to see my little cousins. *winks*
Around 4-5pm left for my Dad side. We were still consider early to reach there. As most of them just arrived only.

Feb 12

Was surfing around checking other blogs when i saw my cousin's blog, Maria. She saw from her friend blog about blogging helping her discover and pen down thoughts of her innerself. I got to totally agree with Maria Point Of View. Because of blogging i know myself much better. Being a complicated & thinker & emotional person. Having to think what and how things happen around me made me learnt quite alot about life and so on.

Saw Angela's Blog on memories

Life is always full of ups and downs.
Just like my blog title,
The Lost Memories.

If one day, your lost memories comes back
and you realise that your present lives
is being affected. What will you do?

Or

If one day, you lost your memories
and you wake up to realise you have to
start life all over again.
What will you do?

I wished i could restart my memories all over again. Just like playing games if i'm not happy with my char i can delete it and restart a new char. I want to be prefect even though nothing is perfect but to be near perfect. Forget all the past restart all over again unless they are thing worth remembering...


A relationship that draws on tears is not love; it is merely memories that cannot be forgotten.
-- Bernard Yen

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Hiya!!! Nothing much happened lately so din't blog

Sch as usual but with shorter timetable 2-3 hours of class and back home =( Yup i'm complaining about it! Sometimes reaching the sch to find out there was no class for the day was really disappointing... either slacking away at home or doing bit by bit of the projects =/ For sometime nv catch movie maybe i'll treat myself 2morrow

Love Story In Sec Sch

Loves usually begins in secondary school, thats why, secondary school life is always so full of memories...

He and She was in the same secondary school. He was older then her by 3 years, so they did not know each other at first... Walking pass each other, crashing into the same guy in the bus a few several times... She did not notice him, and he did not notice her...
But At that year, things started to change, and led to a story, which none will forget...

At that year, online chatting has just been introduced, and it was hot among students, and especially teenagers. He was curious about what online chatting was all about, so he connected the MIRC, and went to his school's IRC channel. He met her...

He went into the channel.. looking through all the nicks, he saw a nick " ReMeMbeR"... he find it special, so he clicked on the nick, and he and she started chatting for the first time...

Days passed, they met in school too... She was really pretty, and he was really cute looking... When he saw her, he would smile and walk pass quickly... She too... she only gave a smile everytime she see him... They have never talked much face to face... But when both of them where online, chatting, they would have loads and loads to talk about... Soon... both of them fell in love... He was the first person that she loved, and she was the first person that he loved.. But they never did tell each other about their feelings towards each other... Then... she changed school, and moved house... They lost contact...

Years passed, He could still remember her... They have been seperated for about 6 years, and both of them had already reached working stage... He became a fasion designer, she became a fasion designer too, though they were in the same line, Fate was never onto them, he never saw her and she never did see him at all...
Until that day, He was to represent his company to sign a contract with the other suporting company. He met her... He saw her... Memories came back... Everything.. the times they had.. the Path that they had once taken... all flashed and re-capped in his mind... He and she had a long talk.. they begin to contact each other by exchanging phone numbers....

One day, He login into his MSN messenger.... and someone had added him.. the nick was "ReMeMber"... He knew it was her.. they started chatting, soon, he told her that he like her before, and still do... there was no reply for a moment.. then, the girl replied that she was felt the same at first too.. she like liked him alot alot.. but thinking that he didn't like her, she did not dare to express her feelings... She apologized, a regretfulsorry, and told him, she had already gotten married a year ago and is living well with her husband and baby boy... She told him to forget about her, then she quited... And never came online... They lost contact forever... He was sad... dissapointed, and full of regrets..Should he have told her that he liked her, today, they might still be togther.... regrets... regrets...

In order to remember the Love that they once shared, and in order to remember her.. He contacted MSN and paid an amount of money, to personalise, and reserve the nick "Remember" just for her...Only she can use the nick "Remember" and he did this all... Just, to remember the girl, tht he had always loved.. but were never bound to be together......